James Swain
Mood:  amorous
Well, it's finally happened. I know I've found the love of my life. I wanna use this space to tell you about him. How he makes me smile. How he makes me cry when I miss him. I love you so much baby!

His name is James Swain. What a perfect name. I know that no one is perfect in this world. To me, James IS perfect. So much has happened in my life. Too much for a girl who is just shy of being 19. I've told James everything. It's nice to know that I can finally talk to someone and know that I'm not just making a fool out of myself. I know that whatever I say won't just get thrown back in my face and laughed about. He makes me feel whole. There is so much love and laughter in my heart. Then again, sadness. It's hard when I think of how far we live from eachother. A province away to be exact. I can't stand the distance between us and I know that it hurts him just as much, if not more. All that will change very soon. The place where I work is only a seasonal job. After that is done, I am moving to where he is. A huge change, I know, but, if you knew my living standards just within my town, you would do the same. Most of my decision for moving to be with him is love. I'd do anything for James. Tell me to walk across fire? Give me a time and place, I'll do it.

Next week, I'm flying down there to be with him. It's only for a week, but still. My birthday will be spent out there with him and amongst his friends. Camping, and many more fun things will be done. It's exciting! Meeting his mom for the first time makes me nervous, but I know it will be fine. I just can't wait to hold him, sleep by him, tell him that I love him to his face rather than on the phone or on the computer. Nothing compares to direct encounters and saying how you feel right to one's face.

You see, James isn't like any other guy in this world. He too has feelings. Emotions if you will. I'll sing songs that remind me of him, or of us. It makes him cry. How can you not read the word "love" when someone cries for you? I've been with a lot of guys in this world. No one has ever showed me the respect and love that James has. No one. I want to take a quote from a song that I truly love: "As long as you are here with me, I know that I can be something more". If anyone knows who Ryan Malcom is, that is from his song "Something More". That one goes out to my baby. Right to his heart.

To James, I love you so much sweetheart. You ARE the love of my life. I'll never let you go. Let's make now, forever <3



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